Writing a novel that might never be published, that no one may ever read. Starting another one.
Jumping on my parents trampoline. Taking my seven year old sister on our usual date: movie, In'n'Out and a stint at Barnes and Noble with the only other person I know who wants to stay as long as I do.
Staying up until two, okay three in the morning, kettle corn and peach Fresca on my nightstand, catching up on Downton Abbey or Sherlock or Person of Interest because I Just. Have. To. Know. I have found myself alone in the middle of the night watching Vertigo or The Notebook, neither of which is probably a good idea for an alone at night movie. I cried. A waste of time.
Sitting at my window, late at night again, listening to John Coltrane and watching the moon and cars go by.
This blog post. Watching John Green YouTube videos. Playing on Pinterest.
Auditioning for plays I probably won't get cast in.
Watching Chopped with my mom until one in the morning. A bowl of fruity pebbles with my brothers before bed.
Looking for jobs. Aren't all jobs a waste of time? What about teaching at my old school? Coming in to the classroom at lunch where the little boy in the Cars sweatshirt shouts "Sarah bearah!" sounding more like "Thawa beewa!"
Who was the first to say time is a thing that can be wasted? If I watch Frasier and write never-published poetry while you go on dates or to business meetings does that make my time more wasted--less valuable--than yours?
That's the thing about it all. Eating churros and funnel cake while saving spots for Fantasmic on the cobblestone streets of Disneyland. Buying five-dollar movies at Walmart, watching the Biography channel documentaries of Johnny Depp and Andre the Giant. Reading novels.
It's all a waste of time.
Maybe.
Nothing is a complete waste of time. Even if you spend 3 hours knitting a scarf just to unravel it, you've still had 3 hours more knitting practise than you would have had!
ReplyDeleteIt may be a "waste" in the technical sense, but it's so worth it!
ReplyDeletetime is time, it doesn't chance, no matter what we do in it--wonderful post
ReplyDeleteI love this! I think about this all the time, actually. (Which is a waste of time? :)) Everything is a waste of time, I guess, but at least with novel writing, it feels like *less* of a waste than most of the other things I do all day. :)
ReplyDeleteI think I'm one of those people who doesn't know how to relax. So many things seem to be a waste of time to me - like watching movie - but I know they're all a part of staying balanced.
ReplyDeleteIt can be hard to tell what is and what isn't a waste of time . . .
ReplyDeleteThe Golden Eagle
The Eagle's Aerial Perspective
I think society makes us feel like we have to be productive 24/7. I say, "Bah." Refueling/wasting time is every bit as important as productivity. I subscribe to the 3 L's: Laughing, lounging, and leisure time.
ReplyDeleteI guess everything is a waste of time, isn't it? In the end, the only value worth worrying about is the value you choose to place in it, and who has any right to say you're wrong?
ReplyDeletei love this. i wish i had something more conducive or philosophical or SOMETHING to say but i don't. i've felt like this before and i just adore this post.
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