Up All Night

I always do this thing where I tell myself I'm going to get my blog post written during the day and I sort of try and think of ideas and then its midnight and I'm watching Chopped and the post still isn't written but by then I'm too distracted and tired to think.

Tonight is no exception.

I love talking to you guys, even when its tired midnight ramblings. You guys get me. You guys are patient with me and my one-track minded whining. (I am still waiting for agents. I am still anxious about getting in to grad school. I am still really really ready to be out of squeak by money mode and be mentally ready to really focus on writing and blogging and vlogging and submitting. Soon. Soon.)

That's just how life has been for me lately. A lot of waiting for agents and school and jobs. I think I've finally got a new project idea that has strong enough bones to hold a full novel, and now I'm just adding a bit more meat and then I can really start. So it's a lot of dice rolling and a lot of waiting to see what comes of it. Maybe it will all converge in a beautiful pool of rainbow awesome and I'll get an agent and an MFA acceptance and a perfect job all at once :)

Life is so interesting. Tonight its Biggest Loser with Mom and as cheesy as it is it really is an inspiring show. Not merely physically; all these kids got here because of loads of emotional and mental garbage and even if we carry it differently its totally cool to see how much happier and healthier and powerful and capable we become when we just get rid of all that junk and focus on what's important.

Is "waiting" just another way of excusing mental baggage? I wonder. There's no reason not to keep working, keep writing. I am, but I definitely think I could use more Yoda. "There is no try, there is only do or do not."

So there's my rambly post and I'll leave you with my rambly latest vlog and we'll see what happens in the next few weeks and in the meantime, let's Do.

Sarah Allen