I have spent a lot of time lately freaking out about things that are stressing me out that I wish I wasn't spending a second of time thinking about in the first place. I am worried about money, worried that I'm missing out on something I should be doing with my life, worried I'm not doing enough, worried about what people think, worried about how things will turn out.
Time to stop that. The thing is, I'm doing okay. Everything will turn out just fine. I know I've talked about all this before, but this is just a reminder for me to bring my focus back on the things that really matter.
I have been so worried about work lately, so confused and unsure about what to do. Really, though, that's silly. I KNOW what I want. I want to write, and to make a living on that. The rest is important as far as financially supporting myself goes, but definitely nothing to get anxious and depressed about. When I have writing as the ultimate end goal it directs me in making decisions about everything else.
This means I need to spend more time actually writing and submitting to agents and competitions and less time worrying about day job and comparing my life to anybody else's life.
Writing. Every day. EVERY day.
Being with family, talking with friends, making new friends.
Taking care of my body.
Making sure God is okay with my life.
That is what I need to worry about. That is what really matters.
4 comments:
Sarah, I'm 48 and still go through these mind-spins at times. Sometimes it's good to disengage, if you can, from external feedback-- even the blog world-- and just focus on you as a person-- your heart, joys, calling. Being in the world but not of the world is a tricky internal balance. Sounds like your heart knows its direction and sometimes all we get is enough light for the step we need to take today (would be nice to have the whole, dang path illuminated though!).
I'm with you. Pretty much with everything you've said. But we just have to trust everything will work out. Maybe do some meditation and just be in-tune with ourselves. I know I'm still looking for my path, but know I will find it one of these days. Keep your head up!
Yeah, if you don't stop you will still be doing it in 30 years...trust me.
It's so true! I've been worrying lately, too, but none of it matters much. I've been using worry as an excuse not to write, but really I should be doing the opposite thing. Thanks for the reminder. :)
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