My roommate didn't get in to the BYU MFA program. We're still waiting to hear from U of U, but we were talking today and that means she has no reason to stay in Provo past the summer. I don't either. Except I do. I want to do something exciting, go somewhere, but I know what happened last time and I'm terrified. Is this my chance to try it in a better way, going with someone I know? Will that make things work better, or am I being insane or cowardly? I don't know. And we still haven't heard from U of U. And yes, I realize this makes us sound like a married couple.
John Cusack movies are dangerous. Seriously. I've watched two in the past twenty four hours. ('How Do You Know' and 'Must Love Dogs'. Both wonderful). Do people like that even exist in real life, and if so, please someone tell me where I can find one? And when people say "get out and do something fun for the weekend" what do they mean? Bars? Parties? What parties? What if all your friends are busy? What if you want to meet new people?
Dear blank please blank is shiny and funny and very distracting. I love it.
I think I've listened to 'Journey to the Past' from Anastasia on repeat about forty bajillion times. Thank heaven for headphones or my roommates would be really, really annoyed.
If I'm not going to stay here past the summer but I'm not making enough money to live really and need to fix that soon, what do I do?
Do guys really prefer long hair to short as much as people say they do? Because I think short hair is cute, and I know my brothers think Emma Watson is gorgeous and she has a pixie cut, but I've also heard that guys really like long hair...Just curious.
Motivation is odd. I can't find any right now. I just want to sit in bed and read and play on Pinterest and watch John Cusack movies. It's not that I don't want to write, I do. And I'm still working on stuff, can't let myself actually lose it completely. But still. *le sigh.
Things are good though. Book--working on it. John Cusack is adorable. Pinterest...DBPB...where should I work? Should I move? I like that haircut. I like windowsills and nighttime air. I wish it was snowing. People are going to think I'm crazy.
Hopefully not too crazy :)
Do you have days like this too? What do you do?
Sarah Allen
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I feel like this all the time! What do I do with my life? How can I find a job that will be good (when I know that nothing is as good as writing- and why can't I get paid for that!? Oh yeah, b/c I studied business and education thinking that writing was impractical. *facepalm). This line of thought is a regular headline in my addled brain.
As for the moving or not, it can be scary. After I finished school, I moved across the country. A year later, I moved again. Both times it was pretty hard to adjust, even though my husband (then he was my bf) was with me the whole time. It is also expensive. However, I know that it gets better. It might take six months to a year, but the culture shock wears off and things start to feel normal again. There is actually a normal set of stages that people go through when they are adjusting to a new place. Google culture shock stages to see if that sounds like what happened last time you tried moving away.
That being said, by the end of the three years we were out adventuring, I was really ready to move back home.
Maybe a good way to think about it would be to do some goal setting. What are your top three most important goals? Would moving affect those in any way? Where would you be most able to achieve your goals?
And finally, John Cusack is adorable. I love his voice. I may need to watch Anastasia today.
Guys will almost always say long hair, and my husband always makes a face when I say I want to cut mine short (he hides it well, and I almost always have short hair) so I think guys like whatever is going to look and feel best on you (yes, I know this is sounding like a pageant answer) but in the end it's totally true.
This summer? Do whatever you want.
As long as it involves John Cusack.
ON a semi/quasi related/un-related note. A co-worker of my husbands used to live in the same neighborhood as Cusack and sort of knew him.
I keep telling her that I need to vacay with her and hang in the neighborhood, just so I could like breathe him in as he walked by . . . lol
hair grows back.. so if you want to cut it do that. Don't make decisions based on what others think(even if it's the whole world) that's dangerous
..but life gets better keep writing and believing that it will. The key here is to believe :)
Oh Pinterest is my latest go to! So addictive!
I LOVE John Cusack. He's one of my many future husbands. MUST LOVE DOGS is a wonderful movie. I loved all her online dating profiles.
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