I don't know why I have such a hard time with decisions. I'm pretty neutral about every day stuff and in general am much more comfortable with letting other people do the deciding. That way I don't run the risk of them not getting what they want and being displeased or offended or something. I will definitely speak up when it matters, but usually I just don't care that much.
So basically, making big decisions that don't really involve someone else's opinion (like where to work) pretty much kills me.
Work is the big one right now. I adore my job, and love working with the pre-k kids. They make my day. The thing is, the hours I have are not enough to be livable and I'm having to do extra on the side to make things work financially. Also summer is coming and I'm going to need to find something new then anyway. Also my roommate applied for graduate school and depending on what happens there I could stay in Provo or might end up going to Salt Lake with her.
All that combined means that I not only don't know what kind of job I want, I don't even know where I need to start looking. The plan right now is to wait and see what happens with roommates grad school and then start job hunting wherever I'm going to end up living and take what I can get and hopefully I can start right when school ends and hopefully it will be a good job.
But so many questions! What kind of job do I want? Does secretarial/receptionist type stuff work just fine, or should I try for something a bit more exotic, and can I get something more exotic with an English BA anyway? What hours do I want, and is there a way to make enough money online to keep work hours part-time so I can have more writing time? Do I want to spend a summer working in Alaska? Ok, yes I do, but am I insane? I don't care enough, really, about where I work as long as it pays the bills because what I really care about is writing and I'm okay with that but is it dumb to leave something like that to fate?
Things always work out, and I'm sure they will in this case. It will just be a relief when they do. My Life Plans A and B both involve me not having (needing) a day-job (because my hot books or my hot man pays the moneys), but those are works in progress and in the meantime rent must be paid and cereal must be bought and so I must work somewhere and I just...don't...know. Needless to say, advice (i.e. vicarious decision making) would be appreciated.
7 comments:
Hmmm. Decisions. They can be gut wrenching in any form. First things first - take a deep breath. Ok, maybe another. Now go out and buy a Magic 8 Ball. It always knows what to do!
I'm a big fan of the old coin flip! But then... you have to choose between heads and tails.
...decisions decisions...
I hate making these sorts of decisions. Like you, I agonize over every possibility. I have no idea what to tell you other than try to figure out what job will give the most money with the right kind of free time so you can write and not starve.
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I both hated and loved the point where I had a million life decisions to make. There were so many options, but...there were SO MANY options. I honestly don't know what advice to give, except just trust that it will all work out. And always remember you can change course. If you make a decision and it isn't working, you can always choose something else. Good luck!
Ah. to be at the stage in life again with all those options before you! I'd probably do things a lot differently. I remember being there. It can be daunting. I ended up spending the summer fighting forest fires and then going on a mission to South America. You're so far ahead of the game by getting your degree and starting to write so young. I almost went to nursing school about the time I had my first baby, but a nurse friend encouraged me to do what I loved and start writing instead. I didn't finish my degree until all my kids were in school. Luckily I have a hubby who works hard to support us so I'm able to pursue my writing dream. That might not be the right thing for everyone but it's worked out well for me. You can always work to pay the bills and write on the side! Alaska sounds like an adventure.
Girl, look at teaching in Asia. With your teaching experience you could get yourself in a big city, which is awesome. And you could be one of those sexy expat writers.
I'm serious, though. It's not great GREAT money--like between 15 to 30 thousand a year usually on average but with your teaching experience you'll probably get offered more--but it's enough to cover living expenses plus some extra to travel.
It'll also give you a million hours to write, unless you would prefer to spend it learning Mandarin/Korean/Cantonese whatever.
Like, you're brave and smart and fun so you'd rock it, and like other people are saying, this is the time in your life to have an adventure. :)
Wow, thanks you guys. I need the support and encouragement. We'll see what happens, eh?
Sarah
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