I don't know why I have such a hard time with decisions. I'm pretty neutral about every day stuff and in general am much more comfortable with letting other people do the deciding. That way I don't run the risk of them not getting what they want and being displeased or offended or something. I will definitely speak up when it matters, but usually I just don't care that much.
So basically, making big decisions that don't really involve someone else's opinion (like where to work) pretty much kills me.
Work is the big one right now. I adore my job, and love working with the pre-k kids. They make my day. The thing is, the hours I have are not enough to be livable and I'm having to do extra on the side to make things work financially. Also summer is coming and I'm going to need to find something new then anyway. Also my roommate applied for graduate school and depending on what happens there I could stay in Provo or might end up going to Salt Lake with her.
All that combined means that I not only don't know what kind of job I want, I don't even know where I need to start looking. The plan right now is to wait and see what happens with roommates grad school and then start job hunting wherever I'm going to end up living and take what I can get and hopefully I can start right when school ends and hopefully it will be a good job.
But so many questions! What kind of job do I want? Does secretarial/receptionist type stuff work just fine, or should I try for something a bit more exotic, and can I get something more exotic with an English BA anyway? What hours do I want, and is there a way to make enough money online to keep work hours part-time so I can have more writing time? Do I want to spend a summer working in Alaska? Ok, yes I do, but am I insane? I don't care enough, really, about where I work as long as it pays the bills because what I really care about is writing and I'm okay with that but is it dumb to leave something like that to fate?
Things always work out, and I'm sure they will in this case. It will just be a relief when they do. My Life Plans A and B both involve me not having (needing) a day-job (because my hot books or my hot man pays the moneys), but those are works in progress and in the meantime rent must be paid and cereal must be bought and so I must work somewhere and I just...don't...know. Needless to say, advice (i.e. vicarious decision making) would be appreciated.